Am I in love?

So me and this boy have been talking for days on Facebook! On Monday we are suppose to kiss! :D I forgot to mention he use to go out with my bestfriend!!!! I still think he has feelings for her although he says he doesn't. Would I be considered a bad friend if I like him or maybe even go out with him? ://

Wednesday March 20,2012

 Do you ever say you don't care but then the truth is hurting deep down inside? I have! My friend is going out with this boy that I use to like. She does everything me and him used to do when I really liked him. She tells me the stuff they do and I make it seem like I'm happy for her but I'm really not. In the inside I wish I was that girl that is able to be called his girlfriend and I am able to call him my boyfriend. I guess us girls always believe in fairy-tale stories but it wines up that our fairy-tale stories never have that "happy ending" we want it to. Sometimes I think, why  can't boys think like girls, but then that would be creepy because they wouldn't be a boy or girl, they would be a shemale. Sometimes I think that love never exist. Its like once a person says " I love you", the relationship goes downhill. Why is there a such thing as love but it never seems to exist?